So yesterday I posted just to say that I hadn't posted a proper blog entry in such a long time. The reason being that I've simply forgot to post here for a while. I figure that it's time to give you all an update of what's going on in my life (well maybe not everything!!!). I really want to get back into the routine of maintaining a blog but it seems to be more difficult than assumed.
I feel that since leaving university I haven't posted much, yet a lot has happened and I've certainly changed a bit as a person. Gone are the days when I could act a bit childish and use the excuse that I'm still a student. I'm now in the real world and seeking employment. I started looking for jobs a bit later than my classmates as I assumed that I was going to do my masters degree, however I assumed wrong. I applied for a careers and professional development loan from Barclays bank, the application process didn't run as smoothly as planned. Even though I sent all of the evidence required to them, they kept sending me letters asking for even more evidence, which I'd send and then be asked for even more. This cycle kept continuing until one day when I got a letter of confirmation. By this time I'd decided that a masters degree wasn't really financially worth it as I'd already got a first class degree. I feel that a masters degree in research methods is designed for people who got a 2:1 classification but want to proceed to PhD level, that's when the degree would come in useful. If you have a first class degree you are eligible to apply for PhD studentships, so why should I borrow money that isn't needed? I see the masters degree as a second option, to improve my skills if I have no success in getting a desirable job over the next year or so.
So far on the job front I haven't actually been invited to an interview. I do admit that a few of my applications were rushed, maybe that's why. I've recently picked up new skills and pushed myself to the limit when applying for a PhD studentship, I still haven't heard any feedback from the particular university but there is still time. I have a few more applications lined up, so hopefully something good will come of all of this time that I'm spending applying for jobs. I'll let you know when and if I'm invited to an interview. Meanwhile I'm stuck visiting the job centre I'm afraid.
I feel down sometimes because I haven't got the job that I want. There's nothing more that I want than to have a job. Sometimes I think that any job would be better than no job. The harder I work on an application the more heartbroken I actually feel when I don't hear anything from the employers. I'm fast loosing my sense of self. Surely something must give soon? I just feel as though I'm going nowhere, the road has ended here, I'm going to unemployed for the rest of my life. This is the last thing that I want, I'm so determined that I'll find a job soon.
Apart from applying for jobs I haven't been doing much else. This might be due to the lack of money that I have at the moment. I've been hanging around with friends, going shopping and the usual things that I like doing, just not as much as I used to. Yet I have more time on my hands, this doesn't make much sense to me. I might seem a bit gloomy at the moment and there's probably a lot more stuff that I want to air but I best leave this for now!
I'll write soon
- Jodie
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